Nat Castellanos

Within my practice, I build bridges between myself and others as a reason to initiate productive self reflection that deepens my existing body of work. My prints open a progressive dialogue that is accepting and inclusive in regards to mental health, gender, and sexuality. I am interested in finding common emotional ground between others through my portraits. I use my work as a vessel to integrate unspoken vulnerability, and by using words and imagery that relate to memory, I intend for viewers to experience the same emotions. Memory and its tendency to deteriorate inline with its ephemeral nature is something I’ve dealt with in adolescence with the loss of older family members. In my childhood, I was often lectured of my forgetfulness and as I’ve grown up I’ve taken steps to counteract poor memory. Printmaking has played a pivotal role in processing and preserving memories through its repetition. Everything I make starts with a drawing, and as my drawings turn into traditional prints or mixed media pieces, I am able to enact repetition that allows me to inscribe my memories deeper, imbuing them with more meaning for a larger community purpose. In seeing my memories repeated in front of me and others' reaction to them, I am given time to reconstruct memories, thus redefining remembrance.

My use of print depicts how I connect with themes of life and death along with the usage of text to relate with suicidal ideation as a way to understand these feelings and ground them in reality. My prints allow me to analyze how depression and anxiety have eroded my physical body. I show this through depictions of myself as a child through portraits, and as an adult with full body anatomy monotypes. As we age, the body deteriorates, as the wear of life is shown through entropy. Our bodies along with curated collected objects stand testament in place of a life that we will leave behind when we die. I work to analyze these representations of life through etchings and screen printed drawings.